Here I am at day twelve, best viagra thumb okay really day thirteen, generic viagra questioning my resolve in developing my New Life Imagined. I am beginning to second guess myself. I have become intensely interested in the workings of a blog. So much so that I took time to develop one for Many Hands Food Co-op just for fun.
I love how easy it is to take everything and place it all in nice neat little files. I love how easy it is to go back and correct mistakes, I love exploring the new tools and changing the look. I enjoy having a place to express myself in all my weirdness. It feeds the creative side of my soul. So in that measure I have found an outlet for that side of myself.
Oh, but then! Back to the reality of the remainder of my list.
I find it very easy to commit myself to dedication towards Community in my life. I always have been able to redirect my energy to causes which touch my heart. Helping to develop a community owned grocery store in an area that greatly needs it excites me. I enjoy working with others. I love seeing the skills and talents people share. I love feeling useful and having a place to share my own talents. This also gives me a place to increase my skills through Education and Creativity .
Then I move on to areas of my own personal responsibility. Holiday vacation is over. Life’s daily schedule has returned. This is the time at which I have committed myself to the development of the remaining step towards the Miracle I seek. So let’s take a look.
As far as Family goes I would have to say I am doing okay but not great. I would really like to focus more on spending at least an hour a day in communication with or in active participation with my husband. I do spend time with him. We love each other very much and have a wonderful relationship. Still, I find it all to easy to simply forget to take the time to talk about things that matter. In a long term relationship it is easy to fall into discussion of family, bills, chores, work. I enjoy real conversations about music, books, movies, spiritual theories, political views with this man I have chosen to share my life. I need to remind myself to take time to be present!
That leads me to Health . This is the area where I struggle most. I have gained and lost the same 100 pounds so many times in my life I think I should get an award for re-bounds. I can not blame this on lack of knowledge. I think I could easily test into a degree for nutrition. I study the body and how it works just for fun. Still something inside me always seems to find it’s way back to eating food with little nutritional value and lots of calories. I am not a stupid woman. I know nutrition is key to living a healthy life. What I lack is self discipline. This is a big part of what this experiment is about. It is my intend to use this blog as a way of self observation. I will be starting a new page specific to diet where myself and others can post our food and exercise plans for the day.
As for Spirituality my goal is to take time to meditate, I am slacking in this area. I would like to make this the first thing I do in the morning and the last thing I do at night. I started off strong and now find myself skipping it. Time to add it back in.
That takes us to Wealth, and this is more an area of clearing away debt at this point and time. I have been spending my time in this area sorting out medical bills, insurance payments and paying what is left. My biggest goal in this area right now is to reduce medical expenses by improving my health through these seven steps. Next is paying yearly expenses such as taxes, followed by increasing personal savings to an amount equal to six months worth of expenses.
So the message of the day is re-focus. Seven hours a day, seven days a week to becoming the person I desire to be. Never doubt you are on the right path to your own personal Miracle!