Day 8: When Plans Fail?

Chrysanthemum (800x600)Every once in a while you have one of those days where it appears all your plans seem to fall apart.  Today is one of those days for me.

I had meetings I needed to cancel, cialis canada ed medical bills that should have been covered that did not get paid, pharm computer programs that would not function correctly, troche and simple things that should work simply not working.  In short,  I spent hours on the phone trying to address things that should have never been an issue.

This was a great reminder of how easy it is to get sidetracked in my daily life.  I found myself eating nuked leftovers while on hold and trying to gather information on the computer.   I ignored my husbands request that I take a break.  I barely looked up from what I was doing to notice dinner much less eat it.

These are old behaviors for me.  I get set on finding a solution and forget to live my life.  I need to remember to break things into manageable pieces.  This is not the way I want to live my life any longer.

I have spend the last five years frustrated because I could not find answers to my health issues.  I may never find the answers to that question.  The concerns I had today all have answers.  Many of them are just a matter of allowing myself the time to find them.

Putting added pressure on myself to solve everything quickly really doesn’t work.  So as hard as it is for me,  I am allowing myself to end the day in a state of incompleteness.  This is new to me.  I will see if meditation helps me release this until tomorrow.  If not I will be found pecking away in the wee hours of the night!

Just another reminder this is an experiment.  Learning new behaviors and a new way of responding to life is also a long term process.  The universe’s response to my need for perfection showed up as my daughter-in-law Loren Shelton wrote article for this site today titled “Seven Tips to Better Nutrition” which addresses breaking things into small steps.  Check it out!

Day 7: Let the New Year Begin!

 

Tower Garden. All it takes is a seed!
Tower Garden. All it takes is a seed!

I am sitting back pondering the upcoming year this evening. Tomorrow life will go back to a more normal routine.  I will miss the unhurried time with my husband, generic cialis viagra the visits with friends and family moving through the holiday season.  I’ll miss the excuse to eat to much, viagra sales cialis drink just a little and get off track.

However, click I am ready to build a new structure for myself this year.  I’m ready to fully step into this 365 days to a miracle experiment.  I am already taking time in my day to remember what I am grateful for in my life.  I’m taking time to meditate, exercise, read, learn new things and spend more time with my husband.  I’m excited about life again!

I have asked many of my friends and family to write pages for this blog.  It warms my heart to see the ways in which they embrace  their creative selves.  Sallie Copper wrote a wonderful article titled ‘Arts Crafts & Nurturing the Spirit‘.  Don Cashimere wrote an interesting response to my calling him a nerd titled  ‘Emotion verses Intellect‘.  Cindy Prince wrote a thoughtful article titled ‘Spiritual Growth and My Music‘.  Each of these articles gives me a chance to know them better as people.  I hope you will take the time to explore their writings and learn a little about them.

Some are wondering, why a blog.  The reason I decided to start a blog is to serve as a way to take the thoughts and desires that whirl around my head and separate them into manageable categories.  I want a place where I can explore what people share with me, a place where I can let people know the real me.

I wanted to create a place where I can block out the political debate, the people bashing, and the religious judgments.   I would like to build a blog community where we encourage one another, learn one another’s dreams and explore spiritual differences with respect.

I’m ready for a new year of love, respect and growth!  I believe miracles are found where love is welcome.  I welcome you with love to 365 Days to a Miracle.

Original 100-Day Pledge – 100 Days of Real Food

This is a page I found on Facebook.  I find this family to be very encouraging.  I do my best to follow this lifestyle. However, cialis sales ed I have gotten off track over the last month.  Beginning Jan 2, cialis sales 2012.  I will being taking the pledge as well! Make sure you check out there site it is filled with great information. -Terrie

Welcome to the original “100 Days of Real Food” pledge page. The idea behind this series of posts is what inspired me to start this blog in the first place. From May through September 2010 our family of four – including our daughters who were ages 3 and 5 at the time – pledged to go 100 solid days without eating a single ounce of highly processed or refined food (that means no white flour or sugar!). You can find the exact guidelines we followed on our “real food” rules page.

We decided to take this pledge so we could draw attention to how much our society has become dependent on processed food. And even though it wasn’t easy at times we wanted to prove that a typical suburban family didn’t have to rely on packaged factory-made convenience foods on a daily basis. We also wanted to experience what it would be like to seek out the real food in our processed food world, and let me tell you what it was definitely eye-opening! One of the things we quickly learned was that our “real food” desires made us the minority most of the time…especially here in North Carolina.

Original 100-Day Pledge – 100 Days of Real Food.

Day 5: Who is that woman in the mirror?

Terrie now
Terrie now

It is easy to hold on to the vision of who I was before.  Today I was looking over this blog. I realized I am using a photo of myself before I became  ill as a representation of who I am.  I don’t want to be seen as the “real”me.

When I look in the mirror now I see a balding morbidly obese women who has lost her sparkle.

It is hard to look at the woman in the picture with love.  I can’t seem to see past the flaws.  Still long before I become ill I was over weight.  When I first started speaking I had thinning hair and weighted close to what I do now.

At that time I was able to speak before groups, cialis sales store travel across country, stuff manage a few websites, cheap serve on boards and at times work a part time job.   When I walked into a room I felt confident.  My smile came from deep within my soul.  The only real difference is the clothes, and the sparkle.

The first step I must take is to embrace the woman I see in the picture.  I need to allow myself to notice the smile on her face, the love from the dog she is holding.  I need to allow her to remember the smile of the man taking the photo.  I need to remember the value of simply being in the moment.

The woman in the mirror will always be the woman I allow myself to see.  Today I think I will take another look!

I finished writing this and then found this in my Facebook feed:

 You are not your body: Janine Shepherd at TEDxKC –

 

Day 4: I Don’t Have Time For That!

As  I was looking back over this Blog I could not help wondering, sildenafil order what the hell was I thinking?  Seven hours a day every day, viagra buy viagra who has time for that?  Then I got real!  I have time for that!  What I don’t have time for is the insane amount of time I spend letting my mind go numb watching TV.

According to an article on NYdailynews.com :

The average American over the age of 2 spends more than 34 hours a week watching live television, rx says a new Nielsen report — plus another three to six hours watching taped programs.  ….

Children 2-11 watch an average of 24 hours of TV a week, or 3 1/2 hours a day.That number dips to 22 hours for teens, ages 12-17, then goes back up to 25 for 18-24. After that it rises steadily until people over 65 average 48 hours a week, or nearly seven hours a day.

photo by de click click
photo by de click click

If I want to be successful on this journey I need to make a conscious choice to step away from the television and step back into my life.  Being an all or nothing thinker my first instinct is to throw the TV out the front door and swear it off forever.  However, time tested reality has shown me this is not the best course of action.

I feel a better course of action is to work towards scheduling self improvement into my life as if it were my full time job.  When I was able to work I spent my days following schedules created by others.  I had to wake up, leave my house, work, eat, and arrange my day around a companies preset schedule.

Why is it I do not  find my own personal well being as important as the well being of a company that employees me?  Do I really think I have all the time in the world for those things?  The fact is time is running out.  If I do not regain my physical, mental and spiritual energy soon I may not be able to reverse the damage already done.

Endlessly watching mindless TV feeds my laziness and my lack of self worth.  In one hour of television I am lead to believe I am hungry, over/under weight, in need of some new item and the world is doomed.  I think not!

So my assignment for tomorrow is to develop a daily “work” schedule for my new job which is healing my body, mind and spirit.

Day 3: It’s All In Your Head!

??????????????????Attached is an article I was reading by  Steven Navella, discount viagra ailment MD, ed about psycogenic disease. This is one of the diagnoses I have received over the past four years.  I have also received diagnoses of multiple mental illnesses such as Bi-polar disorder, purchase Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and Dissociative Identity Disorder.  I have been told I have non-specific migraines, chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia.  I have been tested for MS, seizure disorders and brain tumors.  All this brings me to the conclusion that, simply put, I am not dying but no one knows how to help me.

It also makes me ponder the body – mind connection.  I spent a great many years studying the power of the mind.  I studied “Science of Mind”, “Law of Attraction” and many books of Unity teaching on the power to heal our bodies.

I continue to explore these teachings and study the many unsolved medical terms I have been assigned. I can’t help wondering that if my subconscious mind has the ability to completely disable my body through stress  will I then be able to completely heal my body through the development of stress reduction principles?

If so, I need to learn how to flip the switch!  The switch got flipped a few years ago but I am not sure by what.  How does one trigger the complete opposite reaction from the one being triggered?  If the body has the ability to shut it’s self down then it only seems to reason it can completely heal it’s self as well.   To learn more check out this article!

It’s All In Your Head.

Day 2: A Very Good Day

Today has  been a very energetic day.  I feel good today.  My energy is strong! I was thrilled to see my granddaughters and daughter for about an hour today!

I also am blessed to have some wonderful friends willing to share their stories and knowledge to help us on this journey.  It has been wonderful to explore the talents and stories of people I have know for years.  I am excited to learn from them.

Don and I spent the evening talking about the Universe, generic viagra mind DNA, best viagra try Black Holes and many subjects we haven’t taken the time to discuss in awhile.  It was very interesting and at times very deep!

I continue to study The Four Agreements. It is very insightful.

All in all a very good day!

Working with the Four Agreements

As a start to re-connecting with my faith I am studying “The Four Agreements” Companion book by Don Miguel Ruiz.

For those who have never read the book those agreement are as follows:

1.  Be Impeccable with your word.  Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.

2.  Don’t take anything personally.  Nothing others do is because of you.  What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, viagra usa discount their own dream.  When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, site you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.

3. Don’t make assumptions. Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sovaldi sale sadness, and drama.  With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.

4. Always do your best.  Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick.  Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse, and regret.

For myself I find this book to be extremely beneficial in everyday life.  It is even more so when working to re-connect with life after  extreme depression and illness.     Ruiz’s simple plan for a more aware life breaks through the noise in the mind and gets to the heart of the matter.  I encourage everyone to find and purchase this short and easy to read book.

As for how this connects with my spirituality, that is a little more complex.  At my core I believe we are all here as expressions of the Universe, God, Spirit, whatever you chose to call that which created us.

As humans we each are born with our own essence of self.  We are then molded to fit into the world around us.  We long to be a part of the tribe.  At the same time we strive to have an expression of ourselves as different from everyone we encounter.  Thus, we begin our struggle with balance.

For myself and others like me it is easy to become overwhelmed with the abundance of information about who we should be.  Instead of simply storing that information we try to apply it to our lives.

Hearing words such as “you just don’t get it”, “you did that wrong”, “i don’t understand what you are saying”  to some would be taken as information to create better communication or to improve skills.  To the depressed mind these words are taken as direct attacks on the soul.  It is not processed in the mind; it is processed in the Spirit.  Every perceived criticism has the same impact as a knife being plunged into the heart.

It then triggers an avalanche of information.  The information is like opening a computer file that list’s every mistake you have ever made.  It simply tumbles forth like ‘spam’ in your mind.

Thus it becomes difficult to separate the spiritual Self from the earthbound mind.  It feels as if the Mind is in control of the body at the cost of the Soul.  In a depressed state the only logical course of action seems to be to separate body from Spirit.

I have chosen to begin with this book because it is a very simple reminder that we are our own expression of life and as such a vital part of the Universe as a whole.