I had meetings I needed to cancel, cialis canada ed medical bills that should have been covered that did not get paid, pharm computer programs that would not function correctly, troche and simple things that should work simply not working. In short, I spent hours on the phone trying to address things that should have never been an issue.
This was a great reminder of how easy it is to get sidetracked in my daily life. I found myself eating nuked leftovers while on hold and trying to gather information on the computer. I ignored my husbands request that I take a break. I barely looked up from what I was doing to notice dinner much less eat it.
These are old behaviors for me. I get set on finding a solution and forget to live my life. I need to remember to break things into manageable pieces. This is not the way I want to live my life any longer.
I have spend the last five years frustrated because I could not find answers to my health issues. I may never find the answers to that question. The concerns I had today all have answers. Many of them are just a matter of allowing myself the time to find them.
Putting added pressure on myself to solve everything quickly really doesn’t work. So as hard as it is for me, I am allowing myself to end the day in a state of incompleteness. This is new to me. I will see if meditation helps me release this until tomorrow. If not I will be found pecking away in the wee hours of the night!
Just another reminder this is an experiment. Learning new behaviors and a new way of responding to life is also a long term process. The universe’s response to my need for perfection showed up as my daughter-in-law Loren Shelton wrote article for this site today titled “Seven Tips to Better Nutrition” which addresses breaking things into small steps. Check it out!